Idk if it’s okay to write to you about stuff, if you don’t want to answer this I understand but I filmed myself in the shower when masturbating and I watched it and I’m so disgusted I’m trying not to cry. I thought it would maybe boost my confidence bc every time I see a woman’s body I find them so beautiful no matter how they look, and I hoped that maybe I’d see some of that beauty in my body too but god I’m so ugly and unsexy I feel terrible. I understand why nobody wants me, I’m sad and tired

Oh love ofc it’s ok to talk to me. I’m sorry for only getting back to you now but I’m traveling and don’t have much access to the internet. I know where you’re coming from and I totally understand. However we tend to always be our biggest critics and we end up judging ourselves so hard because of “what we expect to see when we look at ourselves”. Why did you expect seeing something else? Is it because of porn or what you think is beautiful? Is it because you and I are in a society that portrays beautify and sexuality in such a fucked up way especially for women? Probably 😅 Listen. At risk of being cliché, I’m gonna tell you that beauty is a very wide spectrum. Beauty isn’t just what you’ve been thought it is, it is so much more and so much deeper especially when it comes to love, sexuality and relationships. Beauty is inside + outside + they eyes of the ones that love you + your love for yourself (in my humble opinion). You’ll grow and live and learn so much about yourself and others and you’ll meet the people that will look at just what you saw and think it’s the most amazing thing in the whole world. One last thing, don’t place your will to live in others. Learn to love yourself and find joy in being yourself. Don’t place your frustrations on ‘someone is never gonna love me’ if you haven’t even given yourself a good chance at love you. 💜

I don’t even know what to do with myself. I’ve never been this shocked since joining the fandom. What is bighit doing? How sexy is the new album, the MVs, the lyrics, the CHOREOGRAPHY?!! 

  1. Billboard ain’t realy 
  2. The US ain’t ready
  3. We ain’t ready 
  4. The world ain’t ready 

This is gonna be HUGE